Field Trip to Kindergarten

  It is so hard to believe that Joel is done with preschool. Really after basically 3 years of preschool (due to him having an October birthday) he better be ready. Tell the truth I think I am the one having trouble with the thought that next fall he will be a kindergartener. It still seems like yesterday I brought him home from the hospital from being born. The time has really gone by so fast. I am proud of my little guy. He has really done well, and is a smart little whip. We are going to miss his wonderful teachers that he has had the last couple of years. The cool thing is Mrs. G. will be starting to teach 1st grade this fall so Joel will see her again, and maybe even have her as a teacher in the future.
   Anyway Joel's preschool class at Little Huskies North took a trip to see kindergarten. Many of the parents also got to go. We got to eat lunch in the cafeteria, and tour different areas of the school: library, gym, art room, music room, science room, and even a classroom. The lunch sucked like no other, but just being with my son meant the world to me, and seeing him be with his friends. Anyway while we were in one of the classrooms the kids got to sit in the desks, and explore the room. It was hard to see my son sit in the desk, because he looked grown up. Like I said I am not ready emotionally. As we were walking out of the room Joel really had to drive my emotions worse (It made tears fill my eye, but didn't cry). He looked at me and said, "Mommy, I am ready for this now!" I sucked it up and said, "Do you mean the rest of the tour?" He said, "No, Mom I am ready for kindergarten now." I did everything not to lose my emotions right then and there. I ended up waiting until the tour was done, and I was in my car alone (Joel went back to preschool with his friends and teachers).
   Yes, it took me a week to get this wrote. Every time I typed it out I would have tears. I am glad that he feels comfortable going. Which is a good feeling for this Mom. It is hard letting go, but I have to. I can't sit and worry about him being there. I have to put my trust in God, and the teachers/ staff to protect him next year. 
   Today, Joel goes back to the elementary school for his 2 hour kindergarten clinic. This time I don't get to stay. Instead I have to walk away from my little guy while he is there (tears just thinking of it). I have to tell myself it is a taste of having to let go next year when he goes to kindergarten. Maybe it is because he is my 1st and only child which is making it really hard.
  Lord be with my little guy today!